STOP TELLING ME I LOOK GOOD!

STOP TELLING ME I LOOK GOOD!

I am 5'4" and at one point i weighed almost 13st. Then after a painful seperation stress took hold and i lost 6st so i was now 7st. It was women who began making the comments first i looked great, how did i lose the weight? what diet was i on? and so on. My family thought i had lost too much weight and my gp asked me if i was starving myself. at that point is was stress my appitite was gone. then the fear kicked in what if i but on weight again? so i barely ate but found that the bit i did eat put up my weight i watched it climb 1lb after pound til i reached 8st, now i didn't look like a skeleton any more but i felt fat 8st to me is now fat. I am told i still look well and not sick anymore but what they don't know is that i take about 80-100 laxitves a day and have for the last 1yr and a half to try stay at 8st. Food is nw my enemy i can't imagine ever being able to eat normally again. I wonder how i got here? why it was that it was when i was at an unhealthy weight that suddenly to women i had a great figure. So women the next time you see a woman who is unhealthly thin don't tell her she looks great or that her body is fantastic because you might start a ball rolling that can't be stopped.....thats where i am now...dying slowly my body doesn't work without taking laxitives anymore and the only way for me to stop taking them is to not eat because i don't want to be as fat as i am now at 8st....I know sounds mad.....but i can't stop.

Re: STOP TELLING ME I LOOK GOOD! In reply to: pinknp

If i were you id take a trip to the doctor and get some counceling. Or try Hypnotherapy. I am only 5ft 6" and i weight just under 18 stone! I was just over 19 stone at one point but managed to lose a stone but now ive sort of gone off the rails a bit so i need to get back on, anyway, have you thought that as long as you burn the energy that you put into your body you will stay at the same weight!? take note of the energy thats in all the food you eat and do the excersize each day to burn it off. My mum is only 5ft 4 and she went from 14stone something to 10 stone within a year due to the stress of her relationship with my dad, and she looked anorexic! she is now about 12 stone and although she is a size 16/18 she looks much better than she did then! You must be really skinny hun @ 8 stone i would say about 9 stone would be right maybe even 10. My sister in law is about 5ft 6" and she weighs about 8 stone and she is far to skinny, she is now pregnant and the midwife has told her that she MUST eat! infact the midwife said she was to stuff herself! lol i dont think skinny is sexy i think women with a bit of meat on them look really good and i envy them! I would love to be a size 14, i would be really happy at that. I really think a hypnotherspist would help you hun and train your mind to believe in something different and the doc would be able to help you get off the laxitives. good luck hun hope you find this helpful and im sorry for going on and on about nothing really lol! xXx

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