Chrissy Teigen has opened up about getting pregnant for the second time, admitting she’s considered the fact that she could suffer from postnatal depression again.
In a candid interview with Marie Claire, the mother-of-one spoke out about the often taboo subject of postnatal depression and revealed that she would consider adoption.
The 31-year-old said: ‘I would definitely adopt or have foster children. But I loved being pregnant. Maybe I should be scared [of having PPD again], but I don’t know. It couldn’t be any worse than it was – could it?’
Chrissy, who shares one-year-old daughter Luna Simone with her musician husband John, first penned an honest essay for Glamour magazine on her struggle with postpartum depression back in March 2017.
‘I’m speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don’t want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone,’ she said at the time.
In the article, Chrissy detailed her journey to diagnosis, admitting that initially she put her symptoms down to the stress of not having a stable home whilst the couple’s house was under construction.
Adding that when she returned to work, she couldn’t have asked for a better environment as a mum, the 31-year-old said that despite the support of her co-workers, she constantly felt ‘different’.
‘Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me. One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people.’
‘I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: “Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom.”‘
She noted the time she spent indoors, saying that she never went outside unless it was for work: ‘I’d ask people who came inside why they were wet. Was it raining? How would I know — I had every shade closed.’
It wasn’t until Chrissy went for an appointment with her doctor that it was revealed that everything she was feeling, including the physical pain, may have been an indicator of postnatal depression and anxiety.
After being described antidepressants, which ‘helped’, Chrissy began to tell friends and family about her condition, saying: ‘It got easier and easier to say it aloud every time. I still don’t really like to say, “I have postpartum depression,” because the word depression scares a lot of people. I often just call it “postpartum.” Maybe I should say it, though. Maybe it will lessen the stigma a bit.’
Chrissy is now opening about her experience to the public to raise awareness of the fact that ‘postpartum does not discriminate.’
‘I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do,’ she says.
‘More than anything, I always want to have enough energy for Luna – to run up the stairs with her, to have tea parties with her. As she gets older, she’s becoming more and more fun,’ she concludes. ‘Her eyes are getting so wide, and I want to be there for those wide eyes. And I will be.’