Ferne McCann has said that her first Christmas is going to be ‘hell’ about being a single mother.
The former TOWIE star turned This Morning presenter has opened up about parenting one-month-old Sunday on her own, saying that she ‘cries every day’ since her former partner Arthur Collins was convicted of an acid attack that took place in East London earlier this year.
The TV star broke up with Arthur when he was arrested, whilst simultaneously confirming that she was pregnant, and has said that since that moment her ‘whole life has been turned upside down’.
‘You find out you are pregnant, you are so excited but then your whole life is turned upside down. It was absolute hell and it is hell,’ said the presenter in a preview clip from her ITV Be documentary, Ferne McCann: First Time Mum.
‘There is not a day goes by that I haven’t cried. It’s for so many reasons, it’s because I’m scared, I feel lonely, I feel s***, I feel sad,’ said the star.
‘People have their opinion and you are scrutinised for different decisions you make. It is really difficult.
‘I feel like I’m in a situation where I’m damned if I do and damned if I don’t, whatever I do, whatever move I make people are going to have an opinion,’ she added in the candid interview.
However, once Christmas draws to a close, Ferne says that she will feel more optimistic.
‘I am just looking forward to getting this year out of the way and moving forward and putting my main focus on Sunday. Thank God for her. If I didn’t have her, where would that have left me? I would have been on my own.’
Ferne has previously revealed that she’s taken Sunday to see Arthur in prison, explaining: ‘I went to see Arthur and I took Sunday with me. This was because I am very angry about what has happened and I needed to communicate that and wanted to hear what Arthur had to say.’
‘I thought it was important that Arthur see Sunday and see exactly what his actions have led to him missing out on.’
Ferne’s former partner will be sentenced on 18th December after he was convicted on all counts of grievous bodily harm and actual bodily harm on a majority verdict of 10 to two.