'One remark made me bulimic'

Living with bulimia

My bulimia was partly triggered by something a teacher said to me when I was 14. She told me I'd never be a gymnast, because I "wasn't the right shape." After that, I tried every wacky diet going; the boiled egg diet, the cabbage soup diet, you name it. Then one day, I hit on the idea of making myself sick. That way, I thought, I could keep eating and lose weight. Back then, I didn't even know it had a name!

I carried on making myself sick for years. Food was something to feel guilty about. I starved myself, then I binged, then I made myself sick.

By the age of 31, I had a serious eating disorder and I weighed six stone. My blood sugar levels were terrible, I had heart murmurs and I was really weak. I even had to give up my job and move back in with my parents.

So when I was offered hospital treatment for my bulimia, I took it. While I was in there, a lovely nurse said to me, 'I don't think you really want to be like this, do you?' She was right, I didn't. After that, I accepted psychiatric help and saw a nutritionist. They helped me see food as a fuel, to make my body healthy and beautiful. I also learned to eat when I was hungry, and stop when I was full.

On bad days, I still got the urge to make myself sick. But I stuck at it, and now I can honestly say I'm cured of my bulimia. I haven't weighed myself in years, I'm happy with how I look, and I enjoy going out for meals.

I'd advise anyone suffering from bulimia, or any eating disorder, to seek help immediately, and to lean on your family and friends for support. Life really is too short and precious to spend it obsessing about food.
Karen Phair, 36, Surrey

More help and advice

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