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'I'm 38 and I'm dating a 19-year-old'

'I'm 38 and I'm dating a 19-year-old'

My secret is that my boyfriend is nearly 20 years younger than me. My family thinks I've stopped seeing him, but I haven't

Ben joined as a temp in the company where I work and I was his supervisor. We hit it off immediately and then on a boozy night out one thing led to another and we ended up in bed together.

I regretted it immediately because of his age but it was one of the best nights I'd had in years!

We soon started sleeping with each other quite regularly and it became quite serious. We had genuine feelings for each other so I felt it was time I introduced him to my family.

I told my mum before I introduced him to my 16-year-old son and she was horrified.

She told me that I had to end it and that I was disgusting - calling me a paedophile and all sorts which is completely ridiculous because Ben's hardly a child! She said there was no way I should tell my son, but I went against what she said because I felt that he had to know.

I could tell my son wasn't happy when I told him and was very quiet when he met Ben for the first time. He kept quiet for a few weeks until one night he really lost it and started screaming at me, saying he hated me, I was a whore and other horrible things. I was devastated and so hurt by everyone's reaction.

So I decided to tell everyone I've ended it with Ben. I love my son so much and would never want to hurt him but I am also completely in love with Ben. He makes me feel like I've never felt before and I truly believe that he loves me too.

I've still been seeing him secretly since the row with my son, staying late at work just to be together, but I just don't know what to do. The thought of not seeing Ben anymore makes me feel so depressed but I can't upset my family. Please help.
Jackie

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Jayne, about 1 month [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

Jackie..All i can say is will your son live at home for ever ?? no is the answer!! then you will be left by yourself doing what ??? no partner sat alone !!! Erm i don't think so ....my partner is 20yrs older than me too !!!! i asure you when he is 30 let's say no one will even comment on the age difference , i have been there !!! YOU GO FOR IT !!!!!!

Jessica, about 1 month [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

Its very hard to date when u have kids, But if ur son reacted in the way u say. I would have smaked him right in the mouth, that was most disrespectful. With that said i have a great Aunt who married a man who was 20 years younger, he has loved and provided 4 her ever since, going on 40 years. your just going to have to assert ur self and tell every one that its ur life and u will live it in what ever way makes u happy not them.

helen Sydenham, about 1 month [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

hi, I can understand how you are feeling because I am dating someone who is fifteen years younger than me. At first I had alot of reservations but the more time passed I realised that age is just a number!! Im not saying its easy and at times it can be difficult but please remember its the person that counts and not his age. As for your son it is understandable that he will be upset because there is only three years age difference, however this could be an advantage as at least they share some common ground, ultimately the decision is between you and your friend, I wish you the best of luck.

Jessica (dermatoly student), 2 months [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

i am reading your story and its quite interesting. I am a 20 year old. i can understand your son and i can understand you as well. you have the right to love whoever you wants but your child might feel a little bit uncomfortable because your boyfreind is his age. It is not my intension to make you feel sad but you have to decide who's the best either your boy freind or your kid. btw whoever called yuo a pedophile is wrong. you're not forcing this boy . you both want this so its not bad but be very careful. goodluck

marianne, 2 months [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

hiya jackie, i kinda have a situation similar to yours..im 19 and my boyfriend is 36, we have been together for the last nearly 2 years and now have a baby on the way and he is the best thing that ever happened to me! when we first got together i was hiding it from my family but they found out a couple of months into the relationship so i had to admit it to them. at first my mother confronted me and she didnt take it to bad atal and is actually happy for me now thank god but my oldest sister put me through hell and did everything in her power to try and destroy what we have, she made up stories saying that my boyfriend beats me up and sent my older brothers down to where he was living to kill him and none of this is true and she had half of my family not talking to me for ages. but now everything is fine, all my family seen her true colours and saw that she just couldnt bear to see me happy-at least my mother saw through her aswell, but i was so angry with her for doing what she did and she is still doing it her own little sneaky way now but we just all ignore her because everyone can see how happy i am! i think you should go for it despite what your family think, i know its hard but trust me they will get over it in time because they will see how happy u are girl. go with your heart, its not a crime your commiting remember that and it will pay off in time.. ive learned that some people just cant bear to see people with happinness or some family members may be ashamed of what outsisders think, dont mind them im sure they have enough problems of their own behind it all. so i hope you make the right decision girl and best of luck with the future x x

ash k, 2 months [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

jackie, you have a right to be happy, you carnt help who you fall in love with these things just happen, i understand that you dont want to hurt your familly but dont you need to be happy. your son will grow up and leave home in time and that will leave you home alone, i say if he makes you happy then stick with him, if you dont you will regret it for the rest of you life. tell your familly that you didnt mean to upset them and you hope they will be happy for you.

michelle, 7 months [Offensive? Unsuitable? Report this comment.]

its great your feeling happy as this young man is making you feel young again too. you say you love him but remember his 19 and sewing his wild oats. i doubt very much it will last he will probably get bored or you wont be able to keep up.i dont mean that nasty. your son has reacted in a very natural way regardless of who you start a relationship with he will possibly feel jelouse,a little threatend,very cautious and protective of you. after all what teenager thinks there parents should be at it at all.it would be unfair of him to deprive you of any happiness as he is growing up and venturing into adulthood himself neither should you allow any 1 to stand in your way of that happiness.however this fella seems alittle bit to young and i think your kidding yourself if you think there is any future in it.i think you should set out to enjoy it while it lasts and keep it to yourself.and try to keep an mature head on your shoulders dont get to atached or you will end up getting hurt as well as hurting those around you.best of luck.

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