The singer, who welcomed her second child in June 2016, has revealed she’s still suffering with the condition over a year after giving a birth.
‘There are days I’m debilitated to the point where I can barely move. As a kid, I imagined having children and being with an amazing partner. This is a whole other wrench I didn’t anticipate,’ she said.
The mum-of-two, who also suffered from postpartum depression after her first pregnancy, said the condition has come back ‘four times worse’ this time.
‘It’s very isolating. I’m used to being the Rock of Gibraltar, providing, protecting and maneuvering. It had me question everything. I’ve known myself to be a really incredible decision-maker and a leader that people can rely on. [Now] I can barely decide what to eat for dinner,’ Alanis continued.
The singer welcomed her second child in 2016
In order to cope with the condition, Alanis’s treatment includes a combination of medication, homeopathic therapies, daily exercise and therapy. The singer is also channeling her pain into music, and says she’s writing a song everyday.
Reflecting on the impact the condition has had on her relationship with her husband, rapper Souleye, Alanis says it has definitely taken its toll on their seven year marriage.
‘My main priority is that I want to make sure both of my children are loved and bonded with and provided for,. Poor Souleye sometimes gets the dregs of my exhaustion at the end of the night. Even holding hands at this point is a deeply intimate experience,’ she said.
Adding that the two still find ways to bond, like watching Game of Thrones together, Alanis said he’s been understanding throughout her difficult journey.
‘He’s doing the best he can. I just basically say to him, ‘There’s an end to this, and I’m in the middle of it. I’m so sorry for not being able to be who you typically know me to be.’
The mum has previously been open about suffering from the condition and continues to talk about her struggle in the public eye in a bid to raise awareness and end the stigma around it.
‘The stigma remains in a really big way. There’s this version of eye contact that I have with women who have been through postpartum depression where it’s this silent, “Oh my God, I love you. I’m so sorry.”‘
And when it comes to the future, Alanis is optimistic for her recovery and says she won’t beat herself up for taking the time she needs to get better.
‘There are people who are like, “Where’s the old Alanis?” and I just think, ‘Well, she’s in here. She’s having a minute’. I just know that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel and try not to beat myself up.’