Ferne McCann has opened up about her fear that she would struggle to bond with her baby.
During a candid interview on ITV’s This Morning, Ferne spoke to hosts Holly Willoughby and Ferne McCann about her concerns that she might find it difficult to build a connection with her daughter Sunday, whom she welcomed back in November.
‘I felt like, imagine if my baby arrives and I don’t feel that connection, because everyone speaks about this unconditional gush of love. Imagine if I didn’t have that,’ Ferne, 27, explained.
‘I think it’s like a natural concern, I don’t know, maybe it’s just me. But as soon as she arrived, and every minute that I spend with her, the love just grows so much.’
‘I think for me, this year it wasn’t part of the plan to have a baby, but you can’t plan life,’ Ferne admitted. ‘It just happened. I wasn’t the most maternal person, but now I feel so maternal. And I’m just so in love with her.’
Ferne’s pregnancy came at a difficult time for the former The Only Way is Essex star, as it coincided with her ex-boyfriend Arthur Collins’ arrest for an alleged acid attack, for which he has since been convicted.
After the news that she was expecting emerged, Ferne confirmed that the couple had parted ways, and has since expressed her support for the victims of the incident on several occasions.
Speaking about Sunday’s arrival, she added: ‘For me, there was always light at the end of the tunnel. It has been a turbulent seven months for me but I had something to look forward to. That was my focus.’
‘I needed to focus on keeping healthy, on not being stressed, and by doing that I was surrounding myself with friends and family, being busy, I kept on working.’
Ferne has also documented her experience of becoming a mum as part of her new ITVBe reality show, First Time Mum, which will air on 12th December 2017 at 9pm.