Giovanna Fletcher has opened up about the devastating miscarriage she suffered when she first started trying to have children with husband Tom Fletcher.
The author and mummy blogger revealed that she felt like she had failed herself and her family after losing her first child six weeks into the pregnancy.
Speaking for Heat World’s Where’s Your Head At? campaign, which aims to have trained mental health first aiders available at all workplaces and colleges, Giovanna admitted that speaking to others who had also suffered a miscarriage helped her deal with her loss.
‘For me [the miscarriage] happened at six weeks, so before we had really told anyone [about the pregnancy],’ she recalled.
‘So then when you are telling people [about your miscarriage], you’re not only telling them that you were pregnant but that you’d lost a child. I felt like I’d failed me, I’d failed Tom [and] I’d failed the baby.’
The expectant mum continued: ‘It was my first taste of motherhood and I think it affected me in a really bad way. But again, talking about it is the best, best thing because you hear how other people have felt and you realise you’re not on your own.’
Giovanna is now expecting her third child with husband Tom. The couple are already parents to four-year-old Buzz and two-year-old Buddy.
She also spoke about the heartbreaking loss in October last year to mark Baby Loss Awareness Week.
Sharing her ordeal on Instagram, she said at the time: ‘I never got to hear a heartbeat or marvel at a scan of my first little baby,’ she grieved. ‘It was over so abruptly. I remember everything about that morning so vividly. The pain, the loss, the feeling of completely failing myself and Tom. I was crushed, angry and hurting.’
Back in February, Giovanna said that she’d chosen to speak out about her miscarriage because she thinks that many women are ‘scared to say something’.
‘I felt like I could never say anything to friends because people feel like it’s contagious,’ she detailed at the time.
‘It’s a really rubbish thing that happens and it happens to so many people. All you really want in that moment is a hug. You feel like your body has failed you and that’s your first experience as a mother.’